How to say "长大后拿他当念想" (zhǎng dà hòu ná tā dāng niàn xiǎng) in Chinese dialogue

zhǎnghòudāngniànxiǎng

and when I grew up, I held onto him as a thought to keep me going.

Idioms & Colloquial Expressions
Grammar Patterns
INTERACTIVE SCRIPT TIMELINE
LINE 0140:22
xiǎo
shí
hòu
dāng
bǎng
yàng

I looked up to him when I was little,

LINE 0240:24
PLAYING SCENE
zhǎng
hòu
dāng
niàn
xiǎng

and when I grew up, I held onto him as a thought to keep me going.

LINE 0340:27
zhè
guàn

But this habit

Show Information
Source MediaTV Series
Season & EpisodeS1 E13
Timestamp40:24
TMDB ID272715