How to say "我其实特别讨厌 自己这样" (wǒ qí shí tè bié tǎo yàn zì jǐ zhè yàng) in Chinese dialogue

wǒ我qí其shí实tè特bié别tǎo讨yàn厌 zì自jǐ己zhè这yàng样

I hate myself so much for being like this.

Idioms & Colloquial Expressions
INTERACTIVE SCRIPT TIMELINE
LINE 0139:01
tè特bié别pà怕ràng让rén人shī失wàng望

“afraid of letting people down.”

LINE 0239:04
PLAYING SCENE
wǒ qí shí tè bié tǎo yàn zì jǐ zhè yàng我其实特别讨厌 自己这样

“I hate myself so much for being like this.”

LINE 0339:09
wǒ zhī qián hái yǒu xiǎng guò rú guǒ wǒ shì gè nán hái我之前还有想过 如果我是个男孩

“I once thought that if I were a boy,”

Show Information
Source MediaTV Series
Season & EpisodeS1 E38
Timestamp39:04
TMDB ID107329 →