我都瞧不起我自己
“Even I look down on myself.”
THE DIALOGUE REEL
我都 瞧不起我自己
“Even I look down on myself.”
我觉得我就像是
“I think I'm like”
Direct spoken expression in this communicative setting.
Defying one's parents (对着干) often causes profound psychological guilt in Chinese young adults, leading to severe self-reproach if their defiance does not yield successful outcomes.
LEARNING CHUNKS & PARTICLES
to look down upon; to despise
A standard spoken idiom for expressing contempt toward someone, here turned inwards as intense self-criticism.