我本来就没想活
“I never wanted to survive.”
THE DIALOGUE REEL
“how will you survive in this chaotic world?”
我 本来就 没想活
“I never wanted to survive.”
“I've already dragged our family down.”
Direct spoken expression in this communicative setting.
In collectivist Chinese family ethics, feeling like an economic or physical drag on relatives can induce overwhelming shame and guilt.
LEARNING CHUNKS & PARTICLES
in the first place / originally
Emphasizes that a condition or attitude has existed all along.
didn't intend to / didn't plan to
Colloquial way of expressing absence of intent or expectation.