我本来想一死了之的
“I had meant to end my life.”
THE DIALOGUE REEL
我本来想一死了之的
“I had meant to end my life.”
“But I could not bear to leave the child I carry.”
“Do not blame me for keeping quiet; I was so devastated I almost took my own life.”
In traditional Chinese narrative conventions, carrying an unborn heir often serves as the sole moral and emotional tether keeping a desperate concubine or wife alive.
LEARNING CHUNKS & PARTICLES
to end all troubles by committing suicide
A dramatic idiom used in literature or spoken drama describing suicide as an escape from intractable misery.
originally intended to
Common marker indicating a past intention that was subsequently abandoned or interrupted.
Functions here to assert past reality and reinforce emotional conviction.
VOCABULARY & EXPRESSIONS
Parallel Spoken Cinema Scenes (语义近邻切片)
“I even thought of ending my own life,”
“I never wanted to survive.”
“you intended to kill him,”
“You originally wanted to be a gentleman,”